I have been sick since Saturday morning with a terrible cold, and I finally started to feel better yesterday (Wedenesday) morning. Today is my day off and so far I feel fine.

I'm off to Great Lakes today to see Lydia who has been sick and be with her. I havent seen her since Christmas so seeing her is rather overdue, especially since she is scheduled to ship off to San Diego later this month for her new post.

I have a dangerous habit whenever I get some free time. I alwasy try to schedule and work as many things as I can into that time period even if it is just a couple hours, I've got a waiting list of things "TO DO" aldready lined up and ready to go. So even though I have the whole day, I'm going to need to stop myself from over working on my day off, and just relax.

I'm also in the first stages of my next article which, hopefully will be ready for Valentines day, and if so I will try to sumbit in a few key places

My heart is divided into four peices for four places. One for Alberta, one for Washington, one for Chicago, and one for here, for home.

I was here a month and a half ago, and I arrived at my folks place around midnight last night only to find that the remolding is still going strong because we have a new dining room. Crazy no. But it's still gloriously foresty and just a little humid. In Houston everything is more spread out so the city has room to breathe. Quite a switch from Chicago. I just left a fridgid 20 degree Chicago, complete with snow for a classic white Christmas, and instead I'm back home where it's still green and mild. It's good to be home

If you're like me, then sometimes you may happen to freak out or get depressed for no particular reason at any particular time. It's quite annoying.

I woke up this morning still wiped from the 24 hours of blasphemous fun I had experienced over 24 hours before wondering what was wrong with me. I started wondering about stuff like, "What if I get breast cancer one day?" or "what if I really can't take classes next semester, and drop out of school and become even poorer than I am?" going into, "what really is up with the economy now days? am I gonna loose my job and be homeless?" Will I end up a jobless, homeless, drop out with breast cancer?  

Irrational fears. The kind that we obsess about for no reason.

Then I deposited my check. After doing so I checked my balance and saw that it was less than what I had just put in. WTF?

Then I thought, "Crap, what if I overdrafted and didn't know it?"

I rode all the way to work with that on my mind.

See I understand that I am a bit crazy. Knowing my father, and my mother, and how crazy they are independently I'm well aware of my double dose of crazy genes. However I'd like to believe that my dad's crazy genes allow my to keep my mom's crazy genes in check, so that in theory when I'm dwelling on something completely ridiculous (which I do all the time) I have the freedom to realize that I'm doing it and take a step back into a little place called reality.

A few hours into work, I turn to my coworker and say, "You know, I could be really upset that I don't have much money right now. But the fact is that this could be a lot worse. At least I'm not in the red, at least I have money."

Once I got the crazy out and stepped back into reality I felt a lot better, even if I still had no money.

So when I got back here I jumped online to check out my account and see what exactly happened.

Well according to my statement there was no over draft, my check is just pending and it seems that it came in just as a bill to be paid was going out.

Lo, I will not end up poor, jobless, cancer stricken ect. just yet.